Reminiscing

With the happenings at my house I have begun to really reflect onb things that have went down over the years. The tragidies, the fights, the games, the jokes, the lines that have been crossed and the lines that have been neglected.

It makes me sad thinking about all the things certain people in my life are missing. It makes me mad when certain people in my life make other people in my life miss things that I deem important. I just want the best for everyone I know and it doesn't seem to work that way. I don't understand it.

Someone in my life said something about it not being fair today, I thought to myself "Life isn't fair, which you have proved to me numerous times these 16 years) then I thought to myself (You're such a jerk Grace, you really need to stop being such a smart aleck) That's when I really realized what it meant when we say in church " I confess to Almighty God that I have sinned, in my thoughts and in my words, what I have done and what I have failed to do...." Its not all in what we say, even if I think something rude its still not okay even though I didn't say it.

Life takes so much more than what people see, people can't see what you think, but God sees it, hears it and knows it. So even if I say "Yes Sir" and mean "FINE" its still not okay, your outer attitude should match your inner attitude. Which granted is really hard. But something that should be worked at. Therefore I am trying to actually mean what I say and be polite in what I say and actually be polite not two faced... I hate saying that about myself but really that's what it is which stinks but its true.

On a lighter note.... I really love that song America's Next Freak. ahaha. Its like so funny. Yes. So if you are in a happy upbeat mood and want to here a particularly funny upbeat song listen to it. Now if you are in a sad reminiscing mood listen to Who You'd be Today by Kenny Chesney. That's one of my favorite songs ever. Sad but really makes me think about people I've known...

That's all for now...